Finished the 6th and final volume of the emotionally wrenching series Suzuka. We finally get, in flashback, the full backstory of Suzuka's first love and tragic loss and why it's keeping her from forming a more intimate relationship with Yamato. She wants Yamato to just stay friends, like she had with Tsuda before he was killed in that traffic accident; but Yamato is living, breathing, and a passionate human being and this is no longer acceptable to him. It doesn't help that Yamato increasingly reminds Suzuka of her lost love. Miki knows that Yamato still likes Suzuka and tells her she should give him a chance, but doesn't push the issue. It takes a confrontation by Honoka for Suzuka to hear the truth and to get called on her b.s.
These four last episodes ramp up the emotional intensity to 11. Yamato continues to meet with difficulties on the track but still has amazing potential. His sempai is able to take the long view--after all, Yamato is still only a freshman. In part he's trying to impress Suzuka....unfortunately this is exactly what Tsuda was doing before his death, and it sort of freaks Suzuka out. Suzuka at one point comes over to Yamato's apartment after he loses the big race and starts to cook for him. She's not very talented in the kitchen, she really only knows how to make boiled eggs, but she does what she can. Unfortunately, Yamato trips on his tongue again, but more to the point, he triggers some unwanted memories in Suzuka. Suzuka, not unlike the male protagonist in Rumbling Hearts suffers in her own way from post-traumatic stress disorder. She doesn't want to commit to another relationship out of an irrational fear that she'll end up losing Yamato the same way she lost Tsuda. Suzuka flees from Yamato's apartment, very upset. When she's gone for some time and still hasn't returned, Yamato becomes concerned and tears after her in the blinding rain, and enlists Miki to go look for her as well. Suzuka flees to the local shrine and sits on the steps crying and remembering Tsuda. Honoka is about to close the shrine gate for the evening and discovers Suzuka. Suzuka tries to brush off Honoka's friendly queries about what she's doing there so late, but Honoka pieces together what happened. She tells Suzuka pointblank that she's deceiving herself; that she does have feelings for Yamato and that she's just lying when she says she doesn't. Honoka says she's going to quit as team manager because although she still likes Yamato, he only has eyes for Suzuka and probably always will. Suzuka angrily tells Honoka that she doesn't know what it's like to have someone you love die. Honoka allows that this is true, but counters that she DOES know very well what it feels like to get her heart broken.
Honoka implores Suzuka:
"He's a great guy and he's been waiting for so long. He deserves a little happiness. And so do You."
At this Suzuka yells a final protest and runs away, crying. Yamato arrives seconds later and Honoka tells him which way to go.
Actually in the anime, Suzuka has already left by the time Honoka manages to say "and so do you". I would have changed the lines to make THAT line the one that makes Suzuka run off. Small quibbling detail, but I think THAT would have gotten to the core issue...that Suzuka is undermining and sabotaging her own happiness.
Yamato continues to pursue Suzuka; Suzuka, believing she's evaded him, sits down in the pouring rain and contemplates that tomorrow she'll apologize and then she can go back to being Yamato's friend. She's had to walk a tightrope...to be just enough of a bitch to keep Yamato at a distance from her, but not too much that she destroys their fragile friendship. There's no happy medium here and Suzuka is causing heartbreak to everyone around her, Honoka says. This is bigger than her and her problems. Yamato has gone all in, and won't take the friendship consolation prize anymore. Yamato catches up to Suzuka and they start arguing again...impulsively Yamato grabs Suzuka mid-sentence and kisses her, sending her into emotional overload. She takes a second to recover from the shock then slaps the hell out of him. Repeatedly. Calling him a "jerk!" then running off in tears. Yamato thinks for that moment that's he's blown it and lost, for good...but in actual fact Suzuka is on the edge of surrender.
Earlier in the volume Suzuka was chewing out Yamato and he eventually loses his patience with her and demands to know why she hates him so. He turns to leave in a huff and Suzuka grabs his shirt from behind and pleads with him to stay....apologizing for her rude remarks in a kind voice, quivering with emotion. It's a beautiful scene I could watch over and over...because Suzuka is being authentic for once.
After the kiss, Suzuka makes it home and curls up on her bed, crying.
A day passes and it's the weekend and Suzuka, we are told, is headed back to her parents, to go visit Tsuda's grave again. Yamato goes up to confront Suzuka and tell her she needs to stop doing that; it's not healthy and it won't help her get on with her life. Even if she rejects him (Yamato), there's something messed up about Suzuka, he says, and she needs to face it. Suzuka ignores Yamato's provocations and says calmly "Perfect timing. I was going to ask you if you want to come along."; Yamato reluctantly agrees.
Suzuka prays at Tsuda's grave for a long time in silence, letting the incense burn all the way down. She then speaks to Tsuda aloud, so Yamato can also hear her...."I'm sorry, Sempai...but I can't go out with you. You see, I like someone else. Yeah, we fight a lot about everything, and he's kind of irresponsible and immature, but I really, really like him. Goodbye, Sempai."; She stands, turns, and looks at Yamato warmly.
Again, minor quibble, but I would have had Suzuka kiss him there, on the spot. Instead, the two leave in awkward silence after that. Well, actually we don't know how the rest of the day goes, as there's a jump cut to Monday morning, and Suzuka is waiting for Yamato at the bottom of the stairs.
Yuka Saotome (早乙女 優花 Saotome Yūka?) and Megumi Matsumoto (松本 恵美 Matsumoto Megumi?) see her and ask speculatively if she's waiting for Yamato, and if so how cute that is; Suzuka gets embarrassed and starts off for school alone. Yamato is late and comes bounding down the stairs. He runs to catch up with Suzuka. He reaches her and makes small talk. He takes a risk and goes to hold her hand. She's a bit startled but instead of pulling away, she changes their grip and locks her fingers into his and smiles and blushes. At long last, after the longest, most grueling race of his life, Yamato has finally won the biggest prize of all...Suzuka's heart.
In the voice actor commentary, Brina Palencia and Caitlin Glass gently chide Yamato for blowing off Honoka in favor of Suzuka, stating that Honoka is the better of the two girls. Perhaps. But Rob McCollum states (and I agree with Rob's reasoning here), that he's with the Suzuka faction. I also think despite the pain and suffering and effort, that in the end Suzuka was worth it. Yamato had a choice--sort of...settle for silver and or go for the gold. He went for the gold and won.
Although we'd like to believe we're completely autonomous with free will, there's a lot going on in our subconscious minds over which we have no conscious control...and who we like and who we love are often part of this. As much as Yamato wants to believe he's over Suzuka and has chosen to dedicate himself to Honoka, his subconscious mind and his body beg to differ. His behavior towards Honoka is erratic because while his conscious mind wants one thing, the rest of him is still bewitched by Suzuka. He honestly can't help it, either. And Honoka understands this better than either Yamato himself or Suzuka. Honoka recognizes and is the only friend with the guts to tell Suzuka she's lying to herself. Before Yamato kisses Suzuka for the first time in the pouring rain, Suzuka blurts out the honest truth that she's been awful to him on purpose, to keep him at a distance. "If you keep being nice to me, I'm going to fall for you.", she cries, between sobs.
I kissed a girl once in a similar, though not identical situation. I didn't force myself on her like Yamato did (and which I do not endorse), but I did catch her completely off guard, and she reeled from the shock of it; "Why did you have to kiss me?!" she yelled, her voice shaking....before kissing me back if a fit of suddenly released passion.
The anime could have ended with this episode, with Suzuka capitulating to Yamato's kiss...but in all honesty that's been done to death and would have been a clichéd ending. I wouldn't have dragged things on to Monday morning the way it was done...I would have finished things off in the graveyard with a fully willing second kiss from Suzuka, initiated by Suzuka, but whatever. In any case, we can imagine them walking to school hand in hand, intimately...and everyone will know, some will be quite relieved, that these two are finally a couple. I can imagine them getting a standing ovation in the lunch room or homeroom or whatever, with everyone breathing a collective sigh of relief and/or satisfaction, with a collective "Finally!!!"
Again, I know what that feels like, having asked a girl at someone's birthday party to dance with me who'd been treating me not unlike how Suzuka typically treats Yamato for the whole evening. She agreed with an emotional "yes!" and crumpled into my arms...the room exploded into applause and she buried her face into my chest from embarrassment as we swayed to the music. Still one of my fondest memories of High School.
Suzuka is one of the very best Japanese High School Anime Romances out there. Very realistic, and definitely pulls at the viewer's own heart strings. I guess because I'm a guy, I still think Rumbling Hearts just barely packs more emotional punch, but mainly because the character experiencing the heaviest loss is a guy. In this story, Suzuka suffers in ways similar that character, Takayuki Narumi (鳴海 孝之 Narumi Takayuki?). The main difference is that Suzuka's love dies, while Takayuki Narumi (鳴海 孝之 Narumi Takayuki?)'s love clings to life in a coma. Suzuka is able, with difficulty, to put the loss behind her, because of its permanence, while Takayuki Narumi (鳴海 孝之 Narumi Takayuki?) is not so "lucky" as that. His love, Haruka Suzumiya (涼宮 遙 Suzumiya Haruka?), didn't die but lives on in a coma, clinging to life, in a fate literally worse than death. Suzuka is more fortunate than Takayuki, comparatively speaking. His difficulties exceed hers and his pain is that much greater. I wouldn't wish Takayuki's hellish fate on my worst enemy.
Just a quick post addendum...one thing I like best about the series Kare Kano (a.k.a. His and Her Circumstances) and about Rumbling Hearts is the tacit acknowledgement that yes, even Japanese teenagers have premarital sex. These two shows are among the few Japanese High School animes to tacitly acknowledge this fact of life, and do so in a beautiful, tasteful manner. Rumbling Hearts even includes an actual love scene that is very tastefully, tenderly done and not at all vulgar. Kare Kano is more circumspect, but it does make it clear when and where Arima and Yukino made love for the first time. Suzuka only obliquely references sex, via the character of Yasunobu, who asks Yamato pointblank if he's gone all the way with Honoka yet. We can only speculate if, after the series, Suzuka will go all the way with Yamato before graduation, but looking in my Magic 8 Ball, I'd say "Signs Point To Yes".
In the Manga we know that Suzuka and Yamato eventually get married, but the Anime doesn't take the story that far.
Suzuka is one of those series that I would probably break down and buy, so I could re-watch it. It's such a lovely story, so well done and so emotionally gripping.
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